Today, today....... Today......

Today has been the first day I have truly been frustrated in a while. Not so much frustrated by work its self but the lack of assistance I received while trying to complete a task. The sad thing about today is that it goes against what I was trying to say in my last blog. Don't get me wrong, I tried to understand. I tried to view it from the point of view those I asked to help me may have had. Fact is, the only explanation I could come up with is that they simply didn't want to assist.

To make matters worse, I feel like I exhausted every avenue I possibly could to complete my task. I contacted 3 different departments. Each person I spoke with originally agreed with me that something was wrong and escalated the situation upward. The thing is, once their supervisors seen the situation, the completely shut me down. Made me feel as if I were wrong in my thinking.

I know that I am correct and would be willing to wager any amount of money that I am. I have reviewed the situation several times. I have written it out and done the math several ways. Yesterday I spent 4 hours working on this situation. After I left work, I thought about it the whole hour drive home. I went back in today and worked on it some more. I actually found a completely new issue that verified I was correct.

I know the situation is a rather complex one and unless you are willing to take a couple hours out of your day to sit down and work on it, you would never notice what was going on. Since I wasn't getting the answers I desired, I tried to escalate this through my chain of command..... Made 3 calls, got 3 voicemail.

Hmmmmm....... Seems as though I am the only one who cares. Don't take that the wrong way. I'm not complaining. I am actually excited about this whole process because I can now sit back and evaluate my ability to focus and complete a complex task. Even if I am the only one who notices, I am satisfied!

Tomorrow is a new day and a new opportunity. Maybe I can reach the correct people who can point me in the right direction. Maybe I won't. However, at the end of the day, I know I gave 110%! I can rest assure that I did all I could. I can now tell my story and be confident in the results I procured. I may ruffle some feathers along the way but at this point, as selfish as it seems, it is all about me. There is no other purpose than to satisfy my own mind.

We shall see what the fruits tomorrow bears. What will be is what will be. I am comfortable because I had a part in creating what tomorrow will bring. That is right, I finally feel as though I had a positive impact in my future. This is something I haven't felt in a long long time!